june eclipse

Luna eclipse

Standing and walking meditation

When you noticed that i'm not looking or greeting at anyone of you. Please do not feel that I'm proud bc I might be doing walking meditation. What is it? It means that I am reciting mantra while walking. At this period,I must not talk to anyone,if not i will fail in it. A successful walking meditation is when you really cannot feel anyone or even yourself at where about. You have to remain your brain as pure and empty as possible. It is somehow difficult. =DDD

Giving and receiving

I give too much? That is why i did not receive any cares and loves from friends? Is that true? I must not put in too much to friends? I am envy on my sister who receives signatures and wishes from the classes in these 2 years. She would brought back a big card with all peoples signatures and wishes home in her birthday. She can be selfish and people doesn't blame her?No need even bother to return the gifts when people had bought her for present?No need to be useful to anybody? Hahahhaha....and she receives so many from peoples without giving? Why is it like this? Do i suppose to stop being too helpful, too friendly and too nice :(

Right after the exam

In my mind.I was thinking. We,human are originally a individual soul. Based on the sorting and so on, we are finally placed in a family, with the destined people we are with(friends,enemies,family members). Able to be a Human is a great opportunity for a soul to return the debt they had owed the one in the past.Therefore, it is necessarily a best chance to decrease your karma in your past by remaining to be good. So, as long as we have did our best in the responsibilities of either becoming the role of a son/daughter/wife or husband ,we have no fear in death. As everyone has to go through death. The only difference is whether it is early or late. Death is not over. The body is left in the earth. What is brought up with us is not any properties or cash, but only deeds.Bad deeds and good deeds. Whether If your bad deeds are over balanced the good, the goods and bads are equal or the goods are overbalanced the bads. It is said to be a non sad case if one's are able to understand it( from the religion books). That is call, no fear in death. A person who is fear in death is probably because they themselves have known what they had done. The bad they have done. These people can hear the clinging sounds of the metal cuffs as their time are almost up.As in are ready to receive necessarily punishment from what they have done. In able to die in a non suffering condition, or to get away from the suffering we get in our life, 'enlightenment' is the answer . Meditation, remove your thinking in your current state. For connection purposes.Connection of one's pure heart ,empty thought with the universe.Ready to get enlightened.In reciting 'Amitabha' and 'hui xiang'/return all u have recited to the beings nearby,can be up to around 1000 miles.These beings will life in peace. The 2 biggest virtue is the reciting and 'fang shen'/let go the lives. A vegetarian can let go many animals life retreating from eating them. Just for your benefit? To be able to eat them for the taste of your tongue or pleasure? or "I am sorry,i don't want to but u just taste good.I have to eat you" Animals do have feelings. They can feel the pain when u killed them.They have tears. When the animals are killed, the anger with the mixture of scared produced toxic in our blood. It will causes cancer or other diseases.(From the studies) To be healthy,it is the best to eat vegetables. Can we see that our teeth are the same as the herbivores?

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16th of July

Finally...After the stress in the studies, my friends and I are able to get a month break. In this days,i was indeed enjoying it. Hmm...reading manga,books,watching tv, eat and sleep. Sometimes,i just think that it's a wastage of time for not doing something useful like working for part time like that. Hahhaa...However, as time is out,i cant help myself in such of weird emotion and feelings in me. I am happy to as in able to see my classmates and and in starting of the new sem. At the same time,i really are unhappy when finally got to know that i am going to meet ..erm..haha...her again. Maybe,that's is call as karma.Where i have to face it as in returning the debt to whom I owe in the past,There is many peoples in this world who are very different in characteristics for us to make use in. 'Sigh....' Is that call as fate? Hahahha...well,i cant deny that i don't feel tired of whom i'm talking bout. Worrying of failing my subjects in the new sem too. It seems to be more difficult and new to me.Doubt in the co oeperation with whom that will affect my future presentations and group work .As Teacher Anne said before, mood and confidence are equally important that may affects a person's delivered work in a presentation. Tomorrow will be the day,for me to meet my high school friends. It may be a happy occasion I thought. :)

Merry July

Busy month

Exams!!! Assignments!!! Group Work and Presentations!!!

Dewy's Adventure

Cute dewy landed on the ground

Adorable cloud that produces lightning

The original look of dewy in water droplet form

Dewy in ice form

Another pic of dewy in ice form

Yesterday night fever and a wonderful morning

It is nice to wake up early and prepare delicious breakfast. Mum prepared some vegetarian siew ngo, fried some karipap and fried rice while I prepared some yummy pancake. We enjoyed our food. Yesterday, my sister and I played wii, cooking game, from 8pm to the morning of 2am. We finished the 12 recipes thinking could unlock more recipes since the CD said there are more than 30 recipes to be played. Haha! The funny thing is after we managed to get gold medals for all the 12 recipes, it finally came out the word saying " You have awarded a gold medal for all the recipes. And said something that you have finished the game" .My sister and me was like >< " but I admitted that it was fun. Hohoho...Okay that's all for today. Mioew...

Yesterday Morning

Hello! =] I'm very happy today.Sem break's coming. Some of you will noticed that the previous post is being removed. Y? Hahaha! I think I lost my temper on that day. I just posted it to expressed out my feelings and it didn't last for 2 days After thinking back,it is already the past. I almost forget my aim, that is peace. Oh No! i FORGET Buddha's teaching. That is no hate and forgive these innocent peoples. i am sinful. However, I do not know why i am so mad of this person. Maybe that's what people said, everyone has their limitation. Everything kept inside will be exploded out one day. That incident is just an experience of mine. =] Maybe... i didn't know how to handle it properly. Anyway, there are many types of people in the world and i might meet some in my future.

But i found something weird

Why after asking me edit, still want me to explain one to one slides to her?

It is like need to explain word to word. Just read yourself la. Like need to jiao dai everything to her. Isn't it a bit awkward? tai ka jie?(big sister) .

I felt very sorry to him. Asking him to came so early and nothing for him to do. Poor guy, sitting there lonely for 2 and a half hours and no discussion with him.Sat there smiling and laughing while sms-ing. Luckily he didn't feel anything. It is good actually. This pure and innocent boy. She said it is he himself who doesn't want to join the discussion.This is group work she claimed. Nevertheless, isn't it a bit selfish? Asking everyone to accompany her for that few hours and no discussions.

Finally, on that day, 2 of our group members didn't show up for discussion. 'No necessarily discussion right? ', said one of the group member. Yea, actually, it is just a few editing need to be done and it could be done by one person. And, please do show some concern and respect when I'm explaining to only you ,as u ask for it. I'm like a dumb person . Hmm...anyway, it is already over.No offence though. Maybe, I also have my wrong doings too. I should have learn from it.

Hope it will not happen again. Moral of the story=> give some compassion, concern,do not act smart ,no showing off, and learn to control the temper and be yourself .According to what Gio said. TQ you. You woke me up. =)

After that post,I feel better. All of my dissatisfaction is typed out. Next week is my sem3's break. haha! Yeah! I would like to go for shopping. After these days,facing her too much is horrible/disaster.In that hol break, I still have to get ready for another group work and it is to be present after the break.And have to study for MICE subject. Ahh!! sem3 is getting difficult. I can feel the stress. Even how stress it is,It couldn't be as hard as last year in college.Hahah! To study 5 subjects in one year, with less holidays and more assignments,exams and presentations. All squeeze in one year. Really cannot breath. As if I'm trapped in a plastic container,calling for help but no one hear it. That time,I really do not have mood to eat.Now, at least is better because I can do last minute work without feeling much stress. Okay,that's all for today. I have to get the slides done for tomorrow discussion,yes,with her again. Ask me to do so many things. Nothing to discuss but since she wants it, okay la.My objective of life is to have peace with everyone even with people who doesnt really like me because I believe that they will find out one day that I have no harm to them,I just try to be friendly and nice. I want peace =]