june eclipse

Luna eclipse

Standing and walking meditation

When you noticed that i'm not looking or greeting at anyone of you. Please do not feel that I'm proud bc I might be doing walking meditation. What is it? It means that I am reciting mantra while walking. At this period,I must not talk to anyone,if not i will fail in it. A successful walking meditation is when you really cannot feel anyone or even yourself at where about. You have to remain your brain as pure and empty as possible. It is somehow difficult. =DDD

Giving and receiving

I give too much? That is why i did not receive any cares and loves from friends? Is that true? I must not put in too much to friends? I am envy on my sister who receives signatures and wishes from the classes in these 2 years. She would brought back a big card with all peoples signatures and wishes home in her birthday. She can be selfish and people doesn't blame her?No need even bother to return the gifts when people had bought her for present?No need to be useful to anybody? Hahahhaha....and she receives so many from peoples without giving? Why is it like this? Do i suppose to stop being too helpful, too friendly and too nice :(

Right after the exam

In my mind.I was thinking. We,human are originally a individual soul. Based on the sorting and so on, we are finally placed in a family, with the destined people we are with(friends,enemies,family members). Able to be a Human is a great opportunity for a soul to return the debt they had owed the one in the past.Therefore, it is necessarily a best chance to decrease your karma in your past by remaining to be good. So, as long as we have did our best in the responsibilities of either becoming the role of a son/daughter/wife or husband ,we have no fear in death. As everyone has to go through death. The only difference is whether it is early or late. Death is not over. The body is left in the earth. What is brought up with us is not any properties or cash, but only deeds.Bad deeds and good deeds. Whether If your bad deeds are over balanced the good, the goods and bads are equal or the goods are overbalanced the bads. It is said to be a non sad case if one's are able to understand it( from the religion books). That is call, no fear in death. A person who is fear in death is probably because they themselves have known what they had done. The bad they have done. These people can hear the clinging sounds of the metal cuffs as their time are almost up.As in are ready to receive necessarily punishment from what they have done. In able to die in a non suffering condition, or to get away from the suffering we get in our life, 'enlightenment' is the answer . Meditation, remove your thinking in your current state. For connection purposes.Connection of one's pure heart ,empty thought with the universe.Ready to get enlightened.In reciting 'Amitabha' and 'hui xiang'/return all u have recited to the beings nearby,can be up to around 1000 miles.These beings will life in peace. The 2 biggest virtue is the reciting and 'fang shen'/let go the lives. A vegetarian can let go many animals life retreating from eating them. Just for your benefit? To be able to eat them for the taste of your tongue or pleasure? or "I am sorry,i don't want to but u just taste good.I have to eat you" Animals do have feelings. They can feel the pain when u killed them.They have tears. When the animals are killed, the anger with the mixture of scared produced toxic in our blood. It will causes cancer or other diseases.(From the studies) To be healthy,it is the best to eat vegetables. Can we see that our teeth are the same as the herbivores?

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16th of July

Finally...After the stress in the studies, my friends and I are able to get a month break. In this days,i was indeed enjoying it. Hmm...reading manga,books,watching tv, eat and sleep. Sometimes,i just think that it's a wastage of time for not doing something useful like working for part time like that. Hahhaa...However, as time is out,i cant help myself in such of weird emotion and feelings in me. I am happy to as in able to see my classmates and and in starting of the new sem. At the same time,i really are unhappy when finally got to know that i am going to meet ..erm..haha...her again. Maybe,that's is call as karma.Where i have to face it as in returning the debt to whom I owe in the past,There is many peoples in this world who are very different in characteristics for us to make use in. 'Sigh....' Is that call as fate? Hahahha...well,i cant deny that i don't feel tired of whom i'm talking bout. Worrying of failing my subjects in the new sem too. It seems to be more difficult and new to me.Doubt in the co oeperation with whom that will affect my future presentations and group work .As Teacher Anne said before, mood and confidence are equally important that may affects a person's delivered work in a presentation. Tomorrow will be the day,for me to meet my high school friends. It may be a happy occasion I thought. :)